Leonel

HAPPY(;

2009-12-08T18:26:00.001+08:00

1009 (much loves)

HEYHEY, this is ANA NA in the BLOG, YO ((;
Came to lighten the spirits of this blog.
EVERYONE LETS PARTY TONIGHT.
ILOVEYOU, L. ;DDDD
STOP BEING EMOMO. ((:

it's been one year............

2009-08-02T00:04:00.004+08:00

it's been one year since you left us... time pass very fast very fast... today is the 1st year of your death anniversary and i seriously miss you alot alot... i wonder how are you over there, and worried that you're lonely over there..
i miss you.
i miss your soup.
i miss massaging for you.
i miss your cooked food.
i miss your smell.
i miss your sound.
i miss your laughter.
i miss talking / complaining things to you.
i miss ranting about my daily life to you.
i miss calling you daily, asking how are you, got vomit alot anot today.
i miss staying over at your house.
i miss making you laugh.
i miss going to your house every sunday.
i miss going accompany you.
i miss going your house after my soccer on sundays.
i miss going to your room and use your massage chair.
i miss helping you to bathe.
i miss helping you to go buy whatever you need from downstairs.
i miss accompanying you to downstairs to gamble.
i miss you asking me to call your ahbei to buy 4D occasionally.
i miss helping you to make your medicine.
i miss your love to me.
i miss you calls to me.
i miss everything.... everything about you... where are you........
i miss you...
i miss you popo...

You're so fucking special

2009-02-15T01:49:00.001+08:00

Radiohead - Creep

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so fucking special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When I'm not around
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
She's running out the door
She's running out, she run, run, run, run, run
Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fucking special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here

grandma i love you

2009-01-28T23:04:00.007+08:00

happy chinese new year? hmm..
and once again, i miss you grandma.. !
first day of Chinese New Year ' 09
every year, on the 1st day of cny, we will go to si ma lu there and pray ard 3am. this year is still the same but instead with sister, brother and me but without grandma..
morning went to pray my dad's dad and after which went to pray mum's father and lastly my grandma... whenever i go see my grandma, tears will just automatically rolled down from my eyes.. my sister made 3 paper roses for her and put at her place and the 3 roses represents each of us.. hoping that she will always see the 3 of us everyday.. i wonder how is she right now over there? how i wish i can dream of her and talk to her and just let me sleep forever.. how i wish, how i wish. this year cny, i just feel lonely without grandma even though i was with my family. but without going to grandma house and bai nian to her, not able to drink the soup that she cooked specially for me, not able to eat reunion dinner cooked by her, not able to go temple with her, not able to talk to her, not able to joke with her, not able to complain to her about my life, not able to hear her laugh, not able to gamble with her, not able to get money from her to gamble.. so many things are gone...

I am sorry.. i promised you i will study hard.. but.... i know you won't angry with me because you just love ahboy !

i am sorry grandma ! but i will try my best ! i love you ! i love you ! (:

Random.

2009-01-07T14:57:00.003+08:00

" The one you love may not be good to you. The one who is good to you may not be the one you love. But still got to make the right choice which you think is right. " - Little Nyonya.
( took from friend blog by the way. )

strongly agreed to this sentence !

180 days since ahma left me.....

2008-12-07T00:01:00.002+08:00

and again. i lost my confidence. i have no confidence once again. i am lost.
common test is just this coming tues. and i have no mood to study anymore.

i love you, ah ma.

2008-08-03T07:48:00.009+08:00

grandma has passed away. her last word was calling '' Ah Boy '' which is me/bro and i wasn't around. it was my aunt who told me that. i am feeling damn fucking upset and disappointed in myself. when i reached by her bed, i held her hands and it was feeling cold. i heard that there is internal bleeding cause she alrdy vomitted some blood before i came. and her stomach there was like swollen with blue-black patches. i couldnt control my tears and just cried. i keep talking to her and she couldn't reply me as she don't even have the energy to vomit out. then i saw in my own eyes that she vomit blood again. immediately, i cried out again. my mum keep asking me not to cry infront of her but i just couldn't leave her. the doctor came and told us that she is not in good shape. so either we let her suffer and go or she inject medicine to let her go peacefully. but even before the medicine take place, my grandma has some phlegm inside her throat but she just don't have the energy to spit out. and she just gone like that. before i came, she was like quite breatheless, but when i held her hands and tell her that i am here, she slowly calmed down but still feeling sick. the night when she gone, i was staying by her side accompanying her as i knew she will be scare to go alone. so i was sleeping on the massage chair beside her hoping that she will come into my dream and talk to me. ''dear ah ma, wenjun will always love you and you will always be in my heart and you are the best ahma i ever ever had in my life.''

today is the 127th day since my ahma left me ): life without her is so lonely. there's no one to complain about and no one for me to talk whatever is in my heart. no more laughter from her. no more jokes from her. no more food cooked by her. no more calls made to her everyday without fail. no more calls from her. no more pictures taken together with her. no more sharing room with her. no more cooking koka noodles for her. no more no more no more..... everytime i think of her, i will just break down and cry to myself.. there's so much things in my mind that i want to tell her but no longer can.. wonder how she is over there. wonder if she is living good over there? wonder if she miss me and remember me still. wonder if she still loves me. i wonder i wonder.. as i type, my tears just keep rolling down. fuckk.

i want ahma ! urghh..

i want to talk to ahma. i want ahma. i miss ahma.

♥ "People will love you for the way you are"

2008-05-16T20:46:00.003+08:00

so long din't update my blog le. Waiting for joy to help me change my blogskin and also change my song. i lousy in doing all these settings. school starts 5weeks ago and the starting it seems boring but later on, it was fun in poly. I enjoyed myself and joke around with my friends.
hais. i feel so fucking sad for 1week and i thought i gonna be okay soon. But today, my mum went to take my grandma scan report and it was bad. After so much chemo sessions, the cancer cells had spread to all over her stomach area and now going to spread to the kidney area. This means that if her kidneys cant function, the doctor have to insert a tube to allow her to urine or pass motion and this means also it will continue to spread further more and she going to leave me! oh fuck fuck fuck fuck. GOD,why you must make my grandma have stomach cancer. she do so many good deeds and yet she got cancer. why so unfair. why! i rather she die naturally without any illness and without any suffering.
life is really short, so people please cherish ur loved ones before they leave this world.

FUCKING MOOD

2008-01-22T23:25:00.001+08:00

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2007-09-08T18:45:00.000+08:00

& I 'm back here posting again .
I am now at the hospital accompany my grandma .
I using my laptop right now .
Anyway , Prelims is just 2 days away .
Good luck guys! & All the best.
Nice posting!

MY name is Leonel ` =)

2007-09-06T13:39:00.000+08:00

Woo . Just a short post.
MY IDOL IS .............................
BYEBYE

2007-07-16T16:07:00.001+08:00

woots..today is 16july'2007 which means i just had my GCE O'level Mother Tongue Listening Comprehension.. still quite ok.. before that , went have lunch with eugene they all at plaza and then walked around awhile and suddenly , someone ran up and grabbed me.. and then i know is my BB officer.. chey.. they having lunch at plaza too and saw me.. hmph.. prelims exams starting in about 6weeks time!? hais.. must start to work hard alrdy.. if not........ hmm... thats all.. cya

It may be that the old astrologers had the truth exactly reversed, when they believed that the stars controlled the destinies of men. The time may come when men control the destinies of stars

2007-07-11T18:02:00.000+08:00

hm.. having bad flu for 2days alrdy!! roarrr.. i think i shall not blog so much now.. have to concentrate on my studies and spend less time on computer games.. muahhaa.. prelim exams coming real soon and i promised my mom to work hard.. so i will do.. i feeling sick right now..
take care and good luck everyone.. muahaha.. byee

2007-07-09T19:36:00.000+08:00

roarr.. school is getting more boring nowdays.. hmm.. nothing special to post..
Boring~~

2007-07-05T16:48:00.000+08:00

hmm.. lazy and busy to post things.. haha.. had a bad flu yesterday and slept early and therefore dint study for chemistry&emaths class test.. muahahaa.. haha..yesterday wore my BB full uniform and went to let mrs wong to pin the ''founders' man badge on my uniform.. soooo damn scared because is infront of the whole school.. zz.. my legs were shaking abit and faster march out of the parade square once mrs wong finished, but luckily i am not the first one who go and take the awards.. phew.. today 4 free periods because 2chinese= free periods.. then played 'daidee' with the group of ''baxian''.. woah.. baxian they all sooo pro in ''daidee'', surely everyday go train one lo.. omg... my ''ting li mock exam'' got 8/20.. haha.. worst worst results in listening comprehension.. haha.. who cares.. just a mock exam.. think i must go dig my ear's ''shit'' out before the real ''o'' level listening..
hmm.. having tuition later and going to do my homeworkss now.. see ya

2007-07-02T23:01:00.000+08:00

wooots... went out with friends to watch '' transformer'' haha.. the show is quite nice to me.. haha.. then after that went slack around and then some of them got tuition and then we took a bus home together.. haha.. went to eat with damian as he skipped his tuition today.. haha.. sighh.. haven finished doing all my homeworkss.. omg.. haha.. rushing through now.. zz... good nite..

2007-07-01T20:34:00.000+08:00

hmm.. been a few days never update any post.. muahaha.. the reason is that i am too lazy to blog nowdays.. haha.. yesterday went lot 1 to shop with my mum before the GST increase from 5% to 7%.. muahaha.. instead of buying my mum's sandal, i bought a new watch.. my mum chose for me and ask if i want to buy.. so anything.. she bought for me.. haha.. i love her!! today went play pool with glenn and allon for about 3hrs plus and came home.. sighh.. i don't have the feel and kept losing.. haha.. but anyway is just only a game.. tml is youth day and thats means is a school holiday.. muahaha.. going out with my friends to watch a movie and dunno what they want to do after that.. haha.. siann! still haven finish my homeworkss.. roarrr.. wooots..... thats all.. haha...

2007-06-26T22:05:00.001+08:00

woots.. just another day of boring school.. lesson was as usual bored and always take any chance to sleep in class when change over of periods or not important subjects.. hahaha.. hmm.. went tuition just now and then talked to dickson with quite a number of things.. cause i got to board the bus.. hmm.. learnt something that happened to him.. shall not say here or whatever.. haha.. but is good to concentrate on studies now and put aside all relationships or problems.. english period, mdm Tan asked a few students that ''what have they learnt about someone today?''. i was being ask and firstly i said that '' i learnt that sathesh is more darker today'' but this cannot be the thing as this is being racists.. muhahaha... then just anyhow say another thing to faster get away from being asked.. i hate being asked questions by teacher in front of the whole class.. hmm.. i dunno why also.. just don't like the feeling.. muahaha.. hmm.. shall stop here and go to sleep early.. because i really dunno why the past 2 days, i kept wanting to sleep and sleep even though i sleep for quite long alrdy.. omg.. good nite..

2007-06-25T16:50:00.000+08:00

today school reopened.. hmm.. at first, i dread going to school as i will meet til someone.. but no choice.. haha.. but then i think a few days more then will used to it ba.. today at class feel like sleeping.. sooooooo bored and tired.... haha... prelim a few more months and olevel coming soon.. omg.. so fast... zzz.. gtg now.. cya..

You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection just not used to it to talk alot now..

2007-06-23T21:20:00.000+08:00

woots.. went cut hair with frens and then went buy pencil box.. haha.. at last bought a pencil box.. dunno who steal my pencil box when i put in my bag.. that person is a idiotic and psycho.. again.. laugh laugh and laugh.. zzz... now having headaches.. sian.. again ...

2007-06-22T20:11:00.000+08:00

wooots.. enjoyed myself today.. muahaha.. went out to study with my primary school friends.. omg.. talk alot of nonsenses while doing our work and laugh like crazy.. haha.. ''steady steady ley''.. damn idiotic.. haha.. laugh til stomach quite pain and no matter what we talk, we will at least laugh once.. yea.. we are lame! muahaha.. tml going out with them again.. muahaha.. oh yea oh yea.. take care..

Those who love deeply, and who are truly mated with the other half of themselves, have no desire to initiate wars, or to dominate others.

2007-06-21T13:11:00.000+08:00

hmm.. been a few days dint blog le.. haha.. having headaches headaches these few days.. probably because of the stupid hot weather.. school going to start again.. meaning that homeworks and naggings from teachers and my parents going to start soon.. hais.. so irritating ley.. everytime , everyday, same phrases from my parents.. zz.. but is all for my own good.. who cares.. haha.. hmm...... left only a few more homeworks and thats it! i have completed my holidays homeworks.. wooots.. haha.. i gonna to buck up on my chemistry as promised mrs felicia teo to work hard for my chemistry as well as my amaths.. i just hope i can pass my chemistry the next 2 examination and that it.. i don't have to care about chemistry anymore.. muahaha.. chemistry ar chemistry ar.. what a boring subject to me.. haha.. it's all about chemicals.. but pple say the subjects u hate more, eventually will become your favourite subjects.. i dunno is it true anot.. haha.. anyway, i will try my best and put in my best efforts to study and love chemistry.. haha.. gtg soon.. haha.. cya.. take care

2007-06-17T15:31:00.000+08:00

cold..~ haha.. this morning went jogging with benedict early in the morning.. we two are just like brothers man.. haha.. he walked up to my bus-stop and waited for me.. muahaha. thanks man.. haha.. hmm.. came back at 11plus and online and done maths homeworks.. muahaha.. chat with an idiot and talk so long til i'm hungry and now eating.. muahaha.. roar... sian ley.. rot at home whole day... zz.... waiting like an idiot for JOY to online and send me the pics.. awww.. where is she!!! i want the picturess.. muahahaa..

If you aren't good at loving yourself, you will have a difficult time loving anyone, since you'll resent the time and energy you give another person that you aren't even giving yourself

BBQ BBQ!!

2007-06-16T14:51:00.000+08:00

hm.. just woke up.. yawn** so tired as yesterday only sleep a few hrs at ben' house with the two girls.. sooooo cold in the room.. but luckily ben gave me a blanket to cover.. muahaha.. yesterday bbq was very very fun.. it's has been a long time since we met up and talk to one another.. muahaha.. ate alot alot of things and drink alot of cold drinks, until i'm having a slight cough and sore throat.. siann.. haha... i'm waiting for joy to send me the photos that we took.. roarr... so long..!! haha.. later maybe will upload some photos that we took at the bbq.. muahaha.. soooooooo happyyy.. haha.. muahha.a.

2007-06-14T21:25:00.000+08:00

hmm.. today went weijie house to do some homework.. but ended up talking most of our time.. haha.. he is super lame and loves disturb pple especially our own primary school friends.. haha.. so fun being with him and talking to him.. muahaha.. yay.. tml having BBQ with primary school friends.. haha.. i love being together with all my primary school friends.. woots... hahaha..
hmm.. people change as time goes by.. and some even change from good to bad or vice versa.. hais.. i dunno what to do but to let nature take it own course ba..
roarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

2007-06-13T22:25:00.000+08:00

yawn** basketball with some of 4e1 classmates today.. tired tired.. hmm.. dun feel like blog so much post recently.. becos i am alright now.. hmm.. thanks to all my frens.. muahaahaa..
enjoyed today.. roarr..

2007-06-12T18:52:00.000+08:00

hmm.. today did nothing special.. just a normal day.. watch tv and sleep thats all.. but gonna go tuition now .. haha.. omg.. i m looking forward to friday.. it has been a long time since i met up together with my pri sch frens for bbq party.. weee.. haha.. gonna enjoy myself on fri like mad.. muahaha...

2007-06-11T19:30:00.000+08:00

woots.. went to collect my camera at keppal bay there.. zzz... so far... came back and my bro say want go play bowling.. haha.. so we went to cdans and play a few games.. zz.. for the last 2 games, we bet 5dollars at first.. i won and lost the second game which we agreed to bet 10dollars.. zz. sigh.. in the end, i still lost 5 dollars.. i learnt one lesson.. we cannot be greedy and win some money alrdy is good.. dont win so much.. haha.. sian.. still haven done finish my homework.. wtf man.. haha..

2007-06-10T16:20:00.000+08:00

firstly, i want to say sorry to glenn, mingchuan and dickson.. i know i have no guts to say sorry to the ''murtubutt'' guy.. i just feel like fighting and quarrel that all.. i know i maybe stupid or what.. but seriously, i have nothing better to do.. i want to vent my anger on the ball but in the end, i ended up quarrelling with the stupid red shirt guy.. i have no life.. i don't want to care about anything.. i fucking need some time to get this over..
anyway SORRY to 3 of them.. i gonna sleep.. bye..

2007-06-10T00:19:00.000+08:00

hais.. i kept telling myself to forget of you.. but i somehow still think of it when i'm going to sleep or wad.. i fucking hate this feeling.. must i really tire myself then i wont think of it? i dunno.. i really dunno.. i been trying to keep myself busy and think of other things.. but i still cant stop thinking.. anyone tell me how should i do to forget someone that i love deeply?

2007-06-09T20:44:00.000+08:00

smiles..
omg.. leonel is playing the slide.. haha..

woots.. haha.. back from cycling with glenn and eugene.. tired.. cycled very long and butt kinda pain.. haha.. here are some pictures that we took..

2007-06-09T10:53:00.000+08:00

hmm.. yesterday have a good sleep.. haha.. when i woke up this morning, receive a msg from her.. telling me that she reached alrdy.. glad that she is alright as a friend of hers.. i feel that it is better to be friend than just more than a friend.. becos we can share our problems and wont be so paiseh about it.. i think this way is better as it is easier to communicate with one anoter ba.. haha.. hmm.. later gonna cycle with eugene and glenn.. woots.. it has been long time since i got back my bike from jorim.. haha.. wonder if my bike gt any problems made by him anot.. hehe.. haiss.. alot of homeworks given during the holidays.. woots.. gonna make full use of this holidays to buck up on my studies.. i have not played computer games except blogging since the day mrs teo see my mum.. omg.. haha.. roarrr.. will post again later.. haha..

2007-06-08T21:54:00.001+08:00

hmm.. i also hate pple who lied to me.. all i wan is the truth and that's it!! is it so hard to tell me the truth? hais..
i had learnt my lesson...
1) DONT love someone deeply.
2) OPEN your eyes to find a girl/guy to fall in love with.
3) DONT find a girl/boy who is making use of you.
4) DONT treat the girl/guy like u will die without them.
5) STUDY most important.
6) DONT lie to people.
7) DONT depend on looks.
8) DONT be shy.
9) TALK MORE.
10) SMILE ALWAYS.

i love me, i & myself...

2007-06-08T21:29:00.000+08:00

hmm.. firstly, i really want to thanks all my friends who concern about me.. i love all of you all.. especially EUGENE , glenn, mingchuan and weiyang..
at last i have waken up from my dream.. i'm free and easy now! haha..
i just hope that she will be happy with whoever she is with.. i sincerely give them my blessings..
haha.. i give up! i really give up this time round.. but at least find a guy who dont play with relationships lar.. why do she find a guy who changes his gf like changing underwear like that?
from today onwards, i'm gonna live my life to the fullest best and appreciate the loved ones who show care and concern to me...
if i say i'm not feeling sad, will anyone believe? haha.. but i swear i'm going to forget about her and concentrate on my Olevels..
i have to thanks WEIFENG too for accompanying me whole day today.. muahaha.. thanks weifeng for being there for me when i'm feeling down and got problems.. haha..
hmm.. i'm sure one day, pple will appreciate what i have done for them in the past.. haha..
anyone want to go have fun and relief stress? haha.. anywhere will do..

2007-06-07T23:57:00.000+08:00

hais.. it will be a long 12days before she coming back... during these 12days, hmm.. i have no plans to do anything except the bbq party.. sighh.. i definitely gonna to miss her badly.. well.. i cant do anything.. sighhh.. arghh.. i want to keep myself busy busy busy... sighh..!!
12days for me is like 999years!!! i don't want to wait for soo long... arghh... *for her.. Come to me before you say goodbye, hold me close before I start to cry, I'll miss you more than you'll ever know, so kiss me once before you go.

I miss you when something really good happens, because you're the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you're the one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry, because I know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow, and me tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you the most when I lay awake at night, and think of all the wonderful times that we spent with each other for those were some of the best and most memorable times of my life

2007-06-07T13:57:00.000+08:00

hais.. today definitely feeling no mood at all..! i'm sorry to my friends..
i dunno what to do but just hope that time will stop at that moment when i looked at her and she looked back at me.. urghh.. i have no mood to do anything and even listen to teacher in class.. i cant focus on what i am doing.. arghh..

2007-06-06T21:01:00.000+08:00

hais.. if i asked you to stay and don't go, will you think i'm selfish?
hais.. i don't have the courage to ask you to stay, therefore i'm saying it here..
but i also feel if i asked you, i'm being selfish.. how?

2007-06-06T19:50:00.000+08:00

omg omg!! i just know about something.. and now i'm feeling damn damn damn sad.....
i thought i can just forget about you by not contacting you.. but i cant forget you..
what am i to you? u never tell me that you're going to ____________________.
i'm lost right now.. i just want to sleep and don't want to think anything..
i don't want to care about anything anymore.... fuck it!! i'm just a failure..
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr... i'm sorry.....
i have no mood to do anything right now.. so if i offend you in whatever ways, i'm sorry..
haiss.. i know i cant be selfish.. you can do whatever you want to do.. i don't care anymore...
i dunno what to do when you're gone.. i cant live without you.. you are the only reason for me to live on... so when you're gone, i definitely will cry... haiss.. i dunno what to do!!!
i'm going to break down.............. ahhhhhhhhhh... please........... please............. you tell me what should i do ? i m lost!!

2007-06-06T19:35:00.000+08:00

hello everyone.. lol.. been 2 days never blog le... hehe.. these few days will not come online frequent anymore.. because i promised mrs teo not to play computer games too often.. haha.. but i will try my best to blog everyday.. haha..
hmm.. today went vent out my anger by kicking the ball very hard.. i was sooooooooooo fed up and damn sad when i think and saw something.. sighh.. haha.. but after playing soccer, i feel quite fine alrdy.. played in the chem lab.. assshole eugene keep disturbing me and xinyi's bench.. haha.. make til our bench soo wet and dirty.. but lucky eugene helped us wash the basin.. muahaha.. he is our cleaner** opps..
rush home after chemistry.. and went out again.. muahahaha...
thats all then..... cya..... alot of homework to be completed.. wtf!?!?

Love never dies a natural death.
It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source.
It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals.
It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing.

2007-06-03T22:36:00.000+08:00

woke up quite late today.. i'm just too tired... today went to my dad's shop to help him as my uncle and his family is going to a wedding dinner.. zz... went down with my bro too.. came home and here i am blogging..
tml mrs teo meeting my mum and i.. omg.. dunno what is she going to nag again.. hahaa.. who cares? =)

sighh.. it has been quite a few days alrdy... yet................................................ forget it.. shall not say here.. i'm going to sleep............ i'm really tired.. tml still got lessons..
good nights all ..

2007-06-02T22:23:00.000+08:00

"Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who could be falling in love with your smile.."

2007-06-02T22:08:00.000+08:00

CHICKEN... muahahaha..
Fish.. also quite nice... um um..
BUTTERPRAWN!!! super nice!!
mushrooms.. zzz...
deserts.. yum yum..

haha.. thank you glenn for taking photos.. haha.. =)

2007-06-02T17:13:00.000+08:00

woots.. just came home.. haha.. got my founder's man today.. have the ceremony held at bukit batok the new country club there.. haha.. the food are quite delicious.. especially the ''oat butter prawns'' yummy!! i think that is one of the delicious food.. and there is also shark fin.. muahaha..
played stupid things while eating.. glenn and tom were kissing a chicken head.. lOL.. quite fun today.. after the ceremony, those who get founder's man in our company, went to play pool at the country club.. is kinda expensive compared to outside but nevertheless, we played.. lOl.. haha.. went play '' Time Crisis3 '' with glenn.. hahaa... i died first.. zz.. glenn so zhuai.. say he can use 2coins to end the 3 missions.. haha.. in the end, we nvr complete.. muahaha..
gonna wait for glenn to send me those photos he took and will post it up once i received from him.. haha.. today kinda tired.. yawn** thats all..

2007-06-01T22:28:00.000+08:00

hmm.. boring school day today.. stupid eugene and zhining keep disturbing me with velle.. wth? haha.. went home straight after school and went harbour front to repair my camera.. zz.. then went to vivo to walk abit.. went bugis street and then watched shrek3.. fell asleep at the first part.. the show quite boring.. cos i don't like to watch this kind of movie... haha.. but some part are really funny.. went home after that..
wa.. tml must soo early report to the venue for uniform inspection.. wtf.. the ceremony start at 11am and our company report there at 9am.. zzzz... so kiasu!? but nvm.. they don't want us to make any mistakes.. haha....
gonna polish my stuffs and go sleep alrdy.. very tiring day..
good nights all..

For every beauty, there is an eye somewhere to see it.
For every truth, there is an ear somewhere to hear it.
For every love, there is a heart somewhere to receive it

2007-05-31T20:36:00.000+08:00

haha.. today is vesak day.. so no school.. but still got tuition.. zz.. but when i went for tuition, the place cannot be open.. so tuition is cancelled..
sian lar.. tml still got school.. wth.. sighh... everyday gt school til 8june..
hmm.. today quite alright.. only stupid eugene say those tags that shocked me at first, but just meant to be a joke only.. muahaha...
feeling kinda tired now.. maybe going to sleep soon.. =)

2007-05-30T13:24:00.001+08:00

hmmm... chemistry practical exam today... can say easier than physics practical exam.. haha..
after practical exam, had a long break... sighh.. saw what should not be saw.. feel damn sad when saw.. and worst with same person.. but, i cant do anything, i'm not someone to you..
aiya.. don't wanna talk about it anymore.. everytime change my mood to bad.. i hate it!
anyway, got my Founders' Man award and a staff sergeant rank today.. even though i was promoted, i wasn't happy still..
i wonder why things must always happen the way i don't want it to be.. maybe is god who want to make a fool out of me? aiya.. i dunno la!! i really really dunno.. i feel lost..
just hope that faster graduated from secondary school and forget forget whatever sad things in secondary school..
sighh.. my post always looked so depressing.. but... no choice.. because i always feel sad..
there's nothing that can make me happy except *you*
zzzz.... going mingchuan house soon... haha.. asking his mother to help us sew up the velcro on our uniform..
hmm.. cya all..

You can understand the facts of life.
But facts of love are much different.
To love you love someone or someone loves you..
But when you both love each other you're in love with one another.
First become friends and let it go.
Then get serious and get together.
Just make yourself known as a person not as someone you don't want to be known as...

2007-05-29T21:24:00.000+08:00

hm... today went school to have physics practical exam.. saw her on the way to school too.. then walked with her to school.. hmm.. we are the first 2 to reached school.. followed by eugene and zhining.. haha.. we 4 were not late for exam.. haha..
after lesson, went to have lunch and played soccer at the nearby open area.. muahaha..
went home after that..
hmm.. went home then went out again..
came back feeling damn fed up and feel very irritated when someone nag at me..
hmm.. just feel very easy agitated after that..
hmm.. thats all ba.. tml still got chemistry practical exam.. zz...

*Love is the best medicine, and there is more than enough to go around once you open your heart.

2007-05-28T20:08:00.001+08:00

hmm. had 'o' level chinese paper today.. haha.. first time have the feeling of 'o' level examination feeling.. at first, the feeling was scary.. but during the paper2, the feeling had gone.. haha.. went play pool with glenn, eugene & allon.. haha.. then went home play dota with friends..
tml have physics practical test.. zz... played tennis with bro today but only for awhile as my thumb is really damn pain with broken blisters.. anyone teach me how to cure blister? huiying!! teach me.. muahaha..
aww.. that's all.. hehe.. later gonna watch the '' xin fu shuan ren chuan'' last epsiode..!! oh no!! haha..

2007-05-27T20:09:00.000+08:00

* Me & lil cousin

*Me & my lil cousin

*CHEESE*

2007-05-27T17:42:00.001+08:00

hmm.. my uncle and his family came my house today... haha.. played with the cute little baby girl.. went swimming with them too.. hmm.. maybe will post some photos of the baby later.. muahaha.. gonna buy dinner with my bro now for them... sighh...

' you're the only reason for me to continue to breathe on, Whatever you say in the future, my
heart will never say '' no ''

* 你是我呼吸的唯一一个，以后你说什么，我的心里不会说不。*

2007-05-26T10:32:00.000+08:00

monkeys kept in the cage and put on sales...
looking to the camera..
a big jug of sugar cane..only S$1.90
the food that we ate finished..

2007-05-25T23:59:00.000+08:00

woots.. just came back from malaysia.. wa.. today walked alot.. haha.. and my grandma can say still very fit.. walked with us alot even though her legs are pain.. hmm.. never buy alot of things.. just bought alot of chocolates!!! muahaha.. and those are probably for *her*...
hmm.. went malaysia to eat alot.. lunch: pizza hut- cost 70RM plus** then dinner have it at a market which the food are nicee and cheap.. cost 86RM.. muahaha..
will upload some photos tml.. lazy to upload..

2007-05-24T22:13:00.000+08:00

just came back from tuition.. hmm.. tml going malaysia with my sis, bro and darling grandma..
hmm.. at least can get to relax and talk to my cutest grandma.. at least i won't think so much things and i'm just going to break down anytime.. why is it that this month is an unlucky month for me!? so many bad things just happened to me.. haiss.. just feeling sucks!! why!!!
think i'll just sleep and keep myself occupied ba..

*you're the only who can make me smile & you're the only one who can make me cry*

Ask me how many times my heart has been broken
and I will tell you to look in the sky and count the stars.

2007-05-24T15:19:00.000+08:00

today earlier part of school is quite alright.. but when the last 2 periods just sucks.. is not about my results.. hais.. shall not say..
maybe i am too sensitive or what.. i have no rights to stop you from doing things or intrude your private life.. i am just a busybody.. aiya.. just feeling sucks now!! i going to sleep now.. i don't want to care about anything right now and no more.. but everytime i cant do it.. why!!!??
i know i am no one special to you.. but you are a special one to me..

if i were blue,
would you be there for me,
and whisper in my ears that's ok.
would you stand by me,
let me hold you tight
and say you love me one more time.
if i feel good, would you slow dance with me,
and touch my lips with tender loving care.
would you die for me
would you run with me
and never look back
would you be there to love
to be with me?
would you swear that your love is always true?
would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breathe away?
would you be there to love
to be with me?
would you swear that your love is always true?
would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?
would you be there..............

2007-05-23T23:11:00.000+08:00

woots.. just came back.. haha..hmm.. today early departure again.. muahaha.. went home and sleep.. then went with my bro and sis to check their eyesights and went 'MAD JACK' to eat our dinner.. hmm.. the food there are quite nicee.. but i still think fish & co. is more nicee..
sighh.. fri gt to see mrs felicia teo.. roarr...... and sis and bro bringing my grandma to malaysia.. i wanna go!! haha.. maybe gonna tell mrs teo that my mum nt free.. see how la.. haha..
hmm.. think my mood had come back alrdy.. but shall talk less from now on...
good night everyone.... cya...

Love...
Why does it hurt?
Why does it ache?
Maybe because we love too much and too deep that somteimes we forget to keep a little for ourselves...
sad but true.

2007-05-22T15:50:00.000+08:00

hmm.. today had early departure from sch.. as it is really damn boring in class.. almost whole day doing nothing.. almost all teachers never come.. so must well go for my dental appointment early and can go home sleep..
school holidays are approaching.. woootss...

Kindness in words creates confidence,
Kindness in thinking creates profoundness,
Kindness in giving creates love.

2007-05-21T20:14:00.000+08:00

woots.. these few days keep going down my house to exercise different ways.. past 2 days played tennis with my bro and dint play today becos i having blisters at my thumb, therefore cannot play.. muahaha.. but we went swimming instead.. sooo long since i last went swimming with my cousin.. hmm..
woah.. this morning had a bad dream.. cried in the middle of the night.. muahaha.. shall nt say much.. just feel damn sad today.. becos of that stupid dream... sighh..

2007-05-20T22:05:00.001+08:00

hm.. nth to post.. haha.. tml sch starts again.. sian..

I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy,
I’m going to laugh, so you don’t see me cry,
I’m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me-I’m going to smile.

2007-05-19T20:37:00.001+08:00

hmm.. lets talk about today..
went play pool with friends in the afternoon..
came home and rest awhile then go gym and then play tennis with my brother.. haha..
just came home nt long.. feeling damn tired.... sighh..
hmm..
thats all.. nothing to post in these fews days.. got to go bathe now.. cya......

Love is giving people the freedom to be the way they are, not trying to make them the way you want.

2007-05-18T22:20:00.002+08:00

hmm.. no mood to post anything.. haha..
just want to add on to eugene post.. haha.. yea.. i agree with eugene!! muahaha..
pls la.. actor!! we had enough of it.. especially eugene.. stop acting and show your true colours!!
u have no balls and nt fit to be a guy!! stop acting like a nice, caring guy.. yuckss.. you're just an asshole and disgrace to your country..
u have no intergrity and irritating bastard.. stop being arrogant and your f***ing snobbish looks..

hmm.. those agrees , pls tag with names that i know..

2007-05-17T22:24:00.000+08:00

sighh.. today a moody day for me.. hais.. now i have learnt my lessons.. from now onwards, i not going to be care about other people problems, unless is my close friends.. nothing to post about today but just feeling very very tired... O'level chinese is 1&1/2 weeks time.. zz.. sian.. everyday have more chinese periods.. but for our class is good.. haha..
hais.. just received sms from joyy.. zz.. cancelled tml meeting.. but nvm.. i hope she's alright.. haha..
thats all.. good night everyone..

You can never get to peace and inner security without first acknowledging all of the good things in your life. If you're forever wanting and longing for more without first appreciating things the way they are, you'll stay in discord.

2007-05-16T18:30:00.000+08:00

sometimes really cant understand why some people like to force people to do things which they already say they don't want.. come on la.. who are you to force or ask about someone private life things or the reasons for not going.. do you know that you are just an irritating idiot.. once people say they don't want to go or do anything, no one have the rights to force he/she.. i despise those people who force people do things which they don't wish to..
will you like someone forcing you to eat shit? no right? unless you are really an idiot..
will you force someone to love you if he/she don't love you? even if both of you are together, there will be no happiness and joy between both of you.. it's just a fake love and both of you are deceiving your own mind.. this is not the right way!
sometimes hope that people can be more persistent in whatever they say and do.. don't be influence by some bloody idiots and change your decision.. the idiots who influences you have no rights to force you change ur mind..
if there's a will, there's always a way!
Is just that are you willing to do it or not..

2007-05-16T15:00:00.000+08:00

i feeling damn disappointed.. i thought i will pass my physics this time round, as i really depends on my physics because i know that i cannot do well in my chemistry.. sighh.. but luckily, this is the only the mid yr exam.. so i will try to buck up for the prelim exams..
hais.. this time examination sucks.. haahaa.. almost failed all.. haha.. bye..

Love is patient
love is kind
it does not envy
it does not boast
it is not proud
It is not rude
it is not self-seeking
it is not easily angered
it keeps no record of wrongs

2007-05-15T15:06:00.000+08:00

sigh.. today gt back some of my mid yr results.. i done badly for chemistry.. a real F9.. haha.. but i alrdy used to fail chemistry.. but dont expect myself to get til so lousy.. haha.. at least E8 will make me feel happy abit.. haha.. but nvm.. at least pass my chinese.. wootss...

Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Everytime you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high I don’t want to let go, girl.
I just need you you to know girl. I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms I don’t want to run away, I want to stay forever, thru Time and Time..
No promises

2007-05-14T22:23:00.000+08:00

hmm.. hope eugene is okays right now... muahaha.. just now had a good talk with him.. he seems depressed like me.. lol.. but think he is alright now.. he is sad about alot of things.. shall not say anything out.. haha.. tml get back results.. hope today can sleep well.. sian.. saw from sinhan blog that only 12pple passed Social Studies in the whole secondary4 level? i nt sure issit true.. hope it is nt true.. how can it be? haha.. like that sure alot of people failed their combined humanities ley.. but nevertheless, haha.. i m used to failing subjects that i m weak at.. shall not give up on my chemistry til the O'level..because eugene influenced me not to give up.. haha.. hope i can improved on my CHEMISTRY in prelim ba.. cya.. gonna watch tv again.. muahaha.......

2007-05-14T15:01:00.000+08:00

back from school.. haha.. wonder why sometimes there are such hypocrites in this world.. they loves to talk bad behind pple.. and act so innocent in front.. pity those who treated them as friend and helped them in studies they faced, and in the end, kanna backstab.. wootss.. i also gt it before but i felt lucky as it is nt too late to break the friendship.. hypocrites are also the ones who intrude pple privacy and looked at their messages, and also like to let out secrets whom their friends trusted them so much.. this kind of person will get retribution next time..
hmm.. shall not talk more bout those hypocrites pple..
today is a good day.. the friendship between the 5 of us had got back again... i really want to say that '' glenn, u are really a brave guy who admit ur mistakes bravely..'' i still haven say sorry to ''him''.. tml meet him then say.. haha.. we must stay together as one..
sigh.. fail my chemistry again!! really cannot at least pass my chemistry at least one time.. today also unlucky day for me.. while doing chemistry practical, was talking to eugene and ask him dont play with the thermometer if nt later will break and i myself broke it.. secondly, spill the chemical on the table and xinyi also spilled.. haha.. then make our hands so slippery.. suay sia..
ok la.. that all for today.. hehe..

2007-05-13T22:51:00.000+08:00

just came back from my grandma house.. went celebrate mothers' day at there.. haha.. quite a long time when i last saw my grandma.. today after soccer actually wanna go her house , but she go shopping with her groups of friends.. so enthu sia.. but is good.. haha.. sian... tml school starts again.. maybe get back our results for mid yr.. kns.. hope i can pass my chemistry.. i think i haven pass any major chemistry exams since sec3.. i only passed my class test.. hais.. dunno why i cant pass my chemistry... chemistry just soo boring lesson.. have no interests in chemistry.. haha.. thats all.. gonna watch tv now.. cya..

2007-05-13T13:33:00.000+08:00

jus came home nt long ago.. tired.. played soccer at fajar with the usual people.. gonna sleep soon.. my neck quite pain.. zz.. think i dint sleep properly yesterday.. haha.. cya..

2007-05-12T20:40:00.000+08:00

hees.. went to watch movie with eugene, mingchuan, glenn & allon.. then they went to bought bags at ZINC shop at LOT 1... haha... went mingchuan house awhile to play manjong.. but we only play 2 games and stopped alrdy... went home early as i m nt in the fun mood.. today just totally have no mood to do anything.. even if i do something, i will not have the heart to do it properly.. i am really very tired.. cya.. thats all for today...

2007-05-12T09:44:00.000+08:00

yawn** kanna woke up by joyy... hehee... her msg woke me up.. but nvm.. hmm.. yay.. later going out to watch movie with eugene and maybe mingchuan.. hehe.. then play pool.. wa.. kinda long that i last watch movie.. the last movie i watched is ''mrbean holiday'' which is waste of money.. grr.. olevel chinese coming.. sighh.. will edit later in the day..

2007-05-12T00:16:00.000+08:00

muahaha.. just finish playing dota with the usual people.. We lost.. sigh.. til now, haven't recovered my sadness... will nt recover til............................... eugene shuld know.. haha....... good night everyone... zzzzzz...

My Heart Was Taken By You, Broken By You And Now In Pieces Because Of You..

2007-05-11T17:37:00.000+08:00

haha.. Joyy say must write alot of entries then she help me make the background entries... zz.. hmm.. at last, exams finish le.. i sooo happy that exams had ended.. but feel sad becos of something.. hais.. shall nt talk about it...

leonel

2007-05-11T17:08:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah.. Just created this blog.. Thanks sooo much , Joyy.. U're the best!! muahaha.. I love this blogskin u made for me.. It took you several hours to make this skin.. Thanks once again..

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me & just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
chasing cars
Around our heads